ben's coming out

ben's blog blew me away...
found this accidentally, but this youth (13) is apparently aware that he's gay, trying to reconcile his desires with his religious leanings, trying to navigate the hell that is puberty and high school, and has previously written stuff that he went back and unpublished because he thought maybe it wasn't right to be discussing that stuff online. among the things still there are hints of his sexual exploration with boys, but i guess he's trying to keep it vague(r)...or maybe he hasn't actually done as much as unpublishing a blog might suggest- he is, after all, just 13, so it may seem like a bigger deal to him than to me...
the good person in me is touched by his exploration and would love to offer him some encouragement if i knew how to without freaking him out, and the voyeur/writer in me is greedily peeking through the window he's provided, to get a view of something i never have or will experience. i wish he hadn't unpublished stuff before i found it, but i'm still intrigued, and find myself checking him daily. he gets comments on almost every post from the same 2 people, but i have no idea if anybody else he knows is aware he's blogging.
i went to his website (link from blog) and found his list of rules his mom made him promise to obey before she'd agree to his having his own website and blog- it's a life so removed from my own...
anyway, this youth really got me. i hope he makes it through relatively unscathed.

walk good.
ps: the timestamp on this is 24hours off because i wrote the post then kept it as a draft without publishing because i was torn about whether i should tell people about his ongoing journey or not, but then figured he knows his blog is openly available online...